Today my rigid, super srs bsns corporate job announced they were abandoning the 9-5 core hour structure and allowing us to, more or less, set our own schedules – provided we make all our meetings, get our shit done, and stay communicative on chat/email when we’re not in the office.

I’ve longed for this day since the dawn of time. I can’t even believe it’s real… and I hope to god any slacky idiots don’t fuck it up.

Future leaders, this is how you retain and motivate people. RESPECT AND TRUST THEM.

It’s finally warm enough to eat outside… and vegans make a mean pasta. ?

Traveling has this strange effect of taking some of the mystery out of the world.

When we look at photos or videos of exotic places, architecture, foreign cultures, natural phenomena… it’s all in isolation. It’s through a lens, without context. When you experience it firsthand, everything changes. The Mona Lisa is tiny and surrounded by a mosh pit of study-abroaders with selfie sticks. Some Caribbean beaches really are that electrifyingly turquoise, but a stone’s throw away from the all-inclusive resort are sprawling miles of slums.

Everything is different in context.

And the more you see, the more you start to realize… it’s all the fucking same. The world is more or less the same, everywhere. Everywhere you go, everyone is struggling. Most people don’t have the resources to live a full, satisfying life. Sexism and misogyny and gender roles and unbearably dull heteronormativity saturate every nook, cranny, and crevice of the globe – not a single culture immune. Everywhere, women are secondary. Everywhere, children are born and grow up in poverty, likely to repeat the cycle as adults. Everywhere, animals are tortured for consumption (and only in rare cases is it out of necessity). Everywhere, capitalism (or worse) ensures inequality. Everywhere, there are patriarchal politicians dictating the fates of their communities.

Life, the world, existence – it isn’t inherently good with some bad sprinkled in – like you thought as a child. It’s mostly… neutral at best, a nightmare at worst.

It makes it harder and harder to believe in anything magical.

I always say the only thing I really want to see before I die is the discovery of extraterrestrial life. I think I just want to believe really, really badly that there could be a world out there better than ours.

I often fantasize about how much easier and more appealing existence would be if I could just… like baseball. Eat steaks. Go to church. Breed some brats. Be heterocentric. Settle into some pathetic ideal of upper middle class suburban life. Imagine having an entire culture of people just like you… I can’t even imagine what that must feel like. It sounds so fulfilling, even if the life itself is empty and pathetically normative.

I’d rather feel like I fit in the world than feel complex and aware. In a fucking heartbeat I’d pick ignorant bliss over ~woke and depressed. Why even fight for this world… for any of its causes? If all the idiots would stop breeding we wouldn’t have problems anymore. We could just die out quietly, long overdue.

Most days I just feel so lonely. There’s just hardly anyone left I can stand to be around.